Years of longing finally came to an end. It was here, that one chance to feel the most unforgettable feeling in my existence. Only one night, filled with desire, love spewing from every direction in the room, it was common ground, yet still shaky with nerves of innocence. He’s the one, my long lost love, where my soul feels at home, where it belongs. His touch is like no other, it’s safe yet erotic in its own way. His kisses feel like rain, dripping all over my naive mind. And the look that he gave me is one I can only read. Night was almost over, the sun was on its way, and though it came to an end, every time I close my eyes it’s all I see.
I close my eyes and see your face.
Every chance I get you feel closer to me, sometimes I’m even able to touch you with my mind. As my heart races within these thoughts, you vanish to your own dark world where I’m never invited to. My eyes open without me realizing it; it’s like you never existed. I close my eyes and see your face. That’s the only way to get close to you, the only way I can have you.
If only we could dive into an ocean filled with tears of joy to cleanse our souls of all its madness.
To start our lives with a clean slate erasing all of our mistakes only to make them all over again.
Forgiving all who have ripped a piece of our heart to shreds and forgetting the pain ever existed.
How do you trust someone after they’ve lied to you, over and over, lie after lie. Their focus was temporarily elsewhere, not just one, but two and even three times. Their mind had drifted into a dark world that you didn’t have a chance to exist in. You gave yourself this time, for love, for life, forever. The walls around your heart had disappeared only leaving it exposed to sorrow and disappointment. You’re to weak to be angry and still obey your vows. With so much to give and all unnoticed, the unappreciated out weighs everything in between. How do you trust someone after they’ve lied to you, over and over, lie after lie…well you don’t.